The Kindness Chip

There are people who are not equipped to choose happiness, like they’ve never felt happiness in their previous lifetimes at all. They take pride in making other people’s lives miserable. That's where they find temporary excitement…empty…dark. They are to me, the saddest beings to ever walk the earth. Contantly misunderstood, always feeling like the victim .. never smiling…always angry…always hurting…inside… hating everyone and everything around them. They bite your hand when you try to reach out for them. Sometimes, they lure you into thinking they need your help until you’re trapped… tsk. tsk. tsk.

It is always a choice, like I keep saying. We can always choose to be happy. We can also choose to go the other direction, and be miserable like hell and you always get what you put out. Karma, good…bad…it all comes back to you, eventually. Which makes you wonder why some people choose to be angry, miserable, detached. I'm easily drawn to kindness and easily turned off by sour souls. But no matter how tempting, i don’t easily turn away. I try and try to see if they will ever find that kindness chip in them..which i believe, is basic to the human make-up. Even the psychologically challenged would still have that chip in them, corrupted.. but still in there. When people say or do mean things, it’s a reflection of how they really feel inside... rotten. And they need a lot more of your care and understanding than you can ever imagine. You won’t hear them ask for it but their anger is the loudest cry for help they can ever express.

Some of my friends think i’m being gullible and weak when i do this. I don’t know. But this i do know, i would want to be given the same amount of compassion, the benefit of the doubt, the trust that it is inherent in me to turn things around and redeem myself. I cannot expect people to react the same way i would. True. But i still really do believe that we all have it in us to choose to do good, to choose to be kind, to sincerely not want to hurt another human being’s person…another human being’s feelings…even when provoked.

I believe in the human spirit. I am a big fan of that too. And no matter how disappointing some people can be sometimes… we shouldn’t
lose hope and faith in and for them. Imagine how dark this world would become, if we all gave up on each other. You can call me a sap, a
push-over, a weak @#$&%!! but i choose to use the chip and be run over by a truck than refuse to use the chip and be the one driving
the truck… then again… maybe it’s just me.

Blessing in Disguise

Everything that is happening in this world.. in our lives.. has a purpose. Be it something good or bad. Most of the time when we encounter problems beyond our control, we tend to ask a lot of questions.. "Why is this happening?" "What went wrong?" "What caused the problem?" "Who made the mistake?". When these kind of questions run in our minds then sooner or later, we will keep on pointing fingers as to who is to blame.

Sometimes God uses these painful events.. inevitable circumstances to teach us something. God's purpose is not to hurt us, He wants us to learn to trust Him more on His plans for us. He wants us to let him take control of our lives and not the other way around.

I can say I have my sad and painful experiences too but I never blamed God for what happened. I know those were big problems but I believe I have a bigger God. I entrusted him everything even if I was hurting. I talked to Him everyday so I could let go of the pain, the disappointments , the anger and the loneliness. Days have passed and now, I have moved on and I am moving forward.

Just remember that the universe never willed our lives to be like hell. So, when a turning point seems terrible, later you would notice that a wonderful thing compensates for the seemingly hopeless incident. Very often then not our lives become better and things become blessings in disguise after all.

How To Be Alone

HOW TO BE ALONE by Tanya Davis
If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you've not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren't okay with it, then just wait. You'll find it's fine to be alone once you're embracing it.

We could start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library. Where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books. You're not supposed to talk much anyway so it's safe there. There's also the gym. If you're shy you could hang out with yourself in mirrors, you could put headphones in (guitar stroke). And there's public transportation, because we all gotta go places. And there's prayer and meditation. No one will think less if you're hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously (electric guitar plucking) based on your avoid being alone principals. The lunch counter. Where you will be surrounded by chow-downers. Employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town and so they -- like you -- will be alone. Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone. When you are comfortable with eat lunch and run, take yourself out for dinner. A restaurant with linen and silverware. You're no less intriguing a person when you're eating solo dessert to cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. In fact some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it is dark and soothing. Alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community. And then, take yourself out dancing to a club where no one knows you. Stand on the outside of the floor till the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one's watching...because, they're probably not. And, if they are, assume it is with best of human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats is, after all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you're sweating, and beads of perspiration remind you of life's best things, down your back like a brook of blessings. Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, there're always statues to talk to and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversations you get in by sitting alone on benches might've never happened had you not been there by yourself Society is afraid of alonedom, like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements, like people must have problems if, after a while, nobody is dating them. but lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.

You could stand, swathed by groups and mobs or hold hands with your partner, look both further and farther for the endless quest for company. But no one's in your head and by the time you translate your thoughts, some essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept. Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from preschool over to high school's groaning were tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cuz if you're happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay. It's okay if no one believes like you.

All experience is unique, no one has the same synapses, can't think like you, for this be releived, keeps things interesting lifes magic things in reach. And it doesn't mean you're not connected, that communitie's not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. take silence and respect it. if you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it. if your family doesn't get you, or religious sect is not meant for you, don't obsess about it. you could be in an instant surrounded if you needed it If your heart is bleeding make the best of it There is heat in freezing, be a testament.